Does HE exist???

I have often asked myself what God means to me. What is the thing that makes me believe in the existence of the Almighty. But I can never get a straight answer. I just know that there is someone mightier than me somewhere who listens to me and becomes my strength whenever necessary.

I have grown up seeing religious festivities around me. My house has a “seemingly” very powerful God; Narayan. My mother has always said that He is the one who guides our lives and makes things better for us. In school too I would sing prayer hymns with everyone, never understanding its importance or necessity. However, in my adolescence, I could not make myself believe in the existence of this supernatural power. I always felt that this was just a believe my mother had that made her strong. I never saw anything good happening because of Him. Actually I could never see things in that light, could never believe that someone else could make our live better. Often I would ask little things from Him, some very materialistic others being tangiable things. But never did my wishes come true, never did I see any change taking place.

But all these things suddenly changed. When I look back today, I feel it was an overnight’s change that dawned on me. Suddenly I started believing in His existence. I thought why not give Him and myself a chance; why not try to believe in Him. So I did that. But the real change or rather development came when I visited Mathura in the year 2006. I went there with the rather cliché thought of finding a dirty place thronged with thousands of people battling it out to show their believe in Him. However, I was in for a pleasant surprise. I reached there at around 8 in the morning when the temple had just opened. The place was being cleaned and washed and in the background “bhajans” were being played. The whole atmosphere was totally different to what I had expected. The place actually gave me the jitters. Suddenly with a start I felt that yes HE EXISTED.

That was the day when my believe in Him and His powers changed. I slowly started respecting the Almighty. I started thanking Him instead of asking Him, and that was where the major difference occurred. I realised that even before asking Him anything we need to thank Him for all we have. Ever since I have been doing that and have had a rather peaceful life.